Wondering

Man this month has not been a very good one I must say... Feeling all emotional... Getting cranky... Doing stupid things... But I can still focus on my studies quite well (which is what I didn't expect)...

I've been wondering lately, and yes, this is not a good habit...

Wondering how to finish my assignments...

Wondering how to play the B chord properly...

Wondering how to strum and sing at the same time...

Wondering how other people think of me...

Wondering how my friends and family are doing...

Wondering what really happened in a friend's relationship...

Wondering what I really want...

Wondering whether there's someone out there for me...

Wondering how to write this post....

Help

I have to admit... I'm not that particularly comfortable in talking about my problems with friends or even family... It might have something to do with trust, I don't trust people to handle my problems including my family sometimes because I'm never satisfied with their answers, their way of solving it...

It could be insecurity, the fear to be vulnerable because when you're vulnerable other people can take advantage of you, which has happened to me quite often.

Or was it because my problems don't really matter much? They are much bigger issues going on in the outside world. There are people starving, getting shot, not knowing whether they will live the next day... etc...

But people are and will never be satisfied... The laws of economics has been applied here... Consumers have unlimited wants but the world have limited resources...
Even when people have everything they could ever need, they still tend to find the smallest things to complain and to be depressed about... Including myself... We can't help it now can we?

That's why I believe in helping people... Helping people doesn't mean you have to save someone but rather showing your upmost sincerity to try and make the people who mattered to you go through a day smiling... It makes you ignore your problems, giving you a purpose... The satisfaction and happiness you get when you are able to help someone is in fact unparalleled...

Who We Are

After reading a blog post made by a friend of mine, I've decided to try this out myself...

What you do is...
1) Answer these 30 questions with Itunes and then put your music on shuffle mode.
2) The next song will be your answer to each question.
3) I swear to god this is totally random but the results kinda freaked me out.

#1 IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Remember The Name by Fort Minor

#2 WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Ironic by Alanis Morisette

#3 HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Believe In A Thing Called Love by The Darkness

#4 WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Thriller by Fall Out Boy

#5 WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Superman by Five For Fighting

#6 WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sex And Drugs And Rock 'N' Roll by Ian Dury & The Blockheads

#7 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Born For This by Paramore

#8 WHAT IS 2+2?
The Zephyr Song by Red Hot Chilli Peppers

#9 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
A Little Respect by Wheatus

#10 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Blind by Lifehouse

#11 WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Love Hurts by Incubus *Sigh~~~ Story of my life i guess*

#12 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Time Of Your Life by Green Day

#13 WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
No Matter What by Badfinger

#14 WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The Future Freaks Me Out by Motion City Soundtrack

#16 WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Take A Bow by Muse

#17 WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Remedy by The Black Crowes

#18 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Where'd You Go by Fort Minor

#19 WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Move On by Jet *I guess what it means here is that whenever anything bad happens I should Move On.*

#20 WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Heart Shaped Box by Nirvana

#21 WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
The Joke by Lifehouse *Darn... is this for real?*

#22 WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Bring Me To Life by Evanescence

#23 HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Yesterday by The Beatles *I guess I'll die regretting?*

#24 WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
As Long As You Love Me by Backstreet Boys *LOL~~!!*

#25 WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Step Into A World by KRS One

#26 DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
I Feel Good by James Brown *and yes I do feel good :)*

#27 WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Nine Thou by Styles Of Beyond

#28 IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Everyday I Love You Less And Less by Kaiser Chiefs *Yeah... Totally*

#29 WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Dari Telinga Sampai Ke Tulang by Spider

#30 WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Who We Are by Lifehouse

Innocent Love

The title above is actually a 10 episode japanese drama series that I've just finished watching 2 days ago. It's really good because it shows what true love really is without any over the top dramatics (well except maybe for the last epsiode).

The drama shows love in a few different aspects seen through the eyes of very memorable characters especially the 2 main characters. The pace of the story and how it appeals to the audience is just nice and not too exaggerated. But the one thing that made me watch this drama in the first place is Utada Hikaru. Her song "Eternally" really made this drama a must watch for anyone who appreciates a good love story.

I ain't going to lie though, I was quite emotionally attached to the characters and the story. Up to a point where I almost had tears in my eyes. And to think that I've finished watching it on Valentine's... Darn...

Happy times and then... INJUSTICE!

Last weekend was tiring but eventful... The 1 day camp trip at SRJK(C) Mah Wah in Padang Lembu, Gurun was pretty fun! Man... Looking at those kids full of energy and running around like there's no tomorrow made me think back about the good old days... I ain't going to lie though... Taking care of one kid is already a lot of work, taking care of 80 kids well... You do the math haha...

Just looking at those happy faces puts a smile on mine as well, there was a time that I wanted to let go and be a kid too but I have responsibilities. And I can't believe that I forgot to bring my camera again! Darn!

Today though was a moment of injustice, the exhibition competition for UUM's Spring Festival is being held at the Library Foyeur. Just by looking at the different exhibitions made by each DPP (Dewan Penginapan Pelajar/Student Residential Hall), you can clearly see that either SME Bank's exhibition or our DPP's (Yayasan Albukhary) masterpiece deserve one of the top three spots. But no..... We didn't get one single spot in the top three... That's very sad though because our team worked so hard and I even helped them build the bamboo structure... All that for nothing... Was the result biased? Or are they tired of seeing our great DPP win yet another competition? I'll let you decide though, but I've forgotten to bring my camera yet again... Luckily the exhibition will still be there tomorrow... So I'll upload some pics later!