20th of May

The clock points to 12, striking away,
Signaling the coming of another day,
What's the occasion? Someone heard,
T'was the day thy was born in this Earth.

Rejoice! As thy grew older,
But alas none hath thy grown wiser,
Twenty-two! Thy must revel in this youth!
Life is short, thy knoweth tis truth.

The long road awaits me,
Traveling with friends such as thee,
Thus remember the 20th of May,
For it is thou dearest's birthday.

Update

It's about time I make a new post I guess, a lot has happened since the day I arrived home, yum cha and dinner with friends, a random date, car broke down (argh~!!), family trips, chores... Whoa busy busy...

Home

It's funny that whenever I come back home, I'll be sure to spot some changes, as if I've been away for years. Truth be told, I've been away for only a few months, 3 months is the most I've been away from home. This time though I've seen a few changes, my lil bro's hair is getting longer (haha~~), there's a new Viera TV back home (woo hoo!), a new handheld camcorder (cool!), a new route from Tmn Connaught to my home, and a lot more.

Some things never change though, like how hot it is here, never-ending channel switching on Astro, my mum's cooking, the chores, the routine, whoa lots of stuff...

Another 2 days and it'll be my last exam paper... Another 3 days and I'll be out of here... My mind is overfilled with excitement and joy as I await that day. I'm thinking about all the food I had missed, the upcoming Redang trip, my upcoming birthday, friends, family... Well everybody feels the same way about home I guess...

Yesterday late at night, I was craving for some peanuts, so I went down to the store to get some... The street lights were off, and it was awfully dark, quiet, and isolated. It wasn't the first time I felt like that street, and it wasn't the first time that I was left out in the dark, the past begins to creep up on me like a shadow unseen and sinister.

Isolation... I'm afraid of it, yet I embrace it, most of the time, I felt alone. I was hated, loathed, played, hurt, even though that was the past and I try to forget it and move on, it doesn't mean that it didn't happen. It definitely left a scar, and changed my perception of people, I don't seem to trust anyone anymore and I guess I've paid the price.

And then I couldn't stop thinking about why did it happen? I have no idea whatsoever why I was hated, why was I played... Am I a jerk? Am I annoying? Am I so disgusting? Am I naive? All this while I had been thinking that people can be jerks sometimes and hurt you for no reason at all, but nothing is done without reason, so what if the reason was me? How will I know it? And if I don't know it how will I change for the better?

Heh, this is getting silly, I don't even know why I'm writing this, frustration perhaps, or maybe something more. Anyway, time to put this aside, I got an exam coming up.